My Gasoline Rainbow

With my new blog only a few weeks away, I will be limiting my posts to save all the fabulous new juicy goodness for the new one. In the meantime please follow my instagram @mygasolinerainbow to keep up to date with my travels, quotes and new products and fashions etc... Below is just a brief image collage of my Easter weekend spent with my loved ones.

Every morning I wake up, the first thing I do is check outside to see what the weather is like. For as long as I can remember I've done this, it's almost a little OCD. And I'm actually pretty good at predicting what the day will bring, it's a gift ;-) Since my diagnosis six years ago, I've learnt that research has proven that the weather can have a huge impact on people with Bipolar Disorder, especially seasonal changes which explains my recent bouts of headaches and more recently my emotional instability the last few days. The weather hasn't been particularly great of late, it's starting to get colder with bouts of rain. Full moons are another interesting time for me, they can bring on  hypomania  or mixed episodes (it's a full moon tonight). So combining seasonal changes, weather changes and a Full Moon and it's crazy times at my place at the moment. Even though I know these things, on top of the medication, doctor's appointments

 

Today is the first day this week that I haven't had a headache. Sadly, these can be common, although it hasn't happened in a while luckily, but when it does, there isn't much I can do. From the moment I woke up, if I was able to get some form of sleep, it's there, a dull throbbing that remained all day. No pain killer can numb it. Going for a walk seemed to help but the heat and sun made it worse. It's like a torture no-one deserves.  Any chance of doing chores or the things I love go out the window. Even thinking is difficult which when you continually have racing thoughts is like a nightmare. My jaw is tight from clenching my teeth which of course made it worse, it's a vicious circle.  Each morning I open my eyes and hope, please be gone, please be gone. Four days this went on.... It's been so frustrating and I've felt so helpless. Since my arrival back from NZ, I've felt a fresh focus, with the rebranding of my blog in process (yes, so